no apologies no regrets ..:))

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HELLO & WELCOME 2 THE ONLY PLACE
WHERE U CAN GET TO KNOW [AN OTAKU] << (ME) XD 4 REAL
A PLACE WHERE I WRITE WHAT I FEEL IN A PLACE WHERE I CAN
SAY WHAT'S ON MY MIND
IT WILL BE LIKE MY DIARY NOTEBOOK

LET'S START WITH WHO I AM
defining who i am is harder than it seems
no one in this world know who i really am and i mean it when i say no one
you may think that i am overrating but this is the truth
not one from my family or friends can understand me
when they try to explain my character they always miss the truth
no one have ever not even once tried to get to know me well , every one
think that they know me but they really don't
not my parents or friends even my sisters
i am really mysterious kkkkkkkkk

in here u may get to know me a little

let's start again with who i am
my real name is mena i am 17 years old now & i'm an anime, manga &vg addict
anime for me is not just some sort of tv shows it is like my
escape from reality
i love anime aloot that when i sit alone and think of something
i don't talk 2 my self but with my favorite characters
that is weird right XD
when i am at a party i feel so lonely although I am surrounded by a lot of people

i'll continue later when i have a a spare time

Sayonara 4 now

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HELLO AGAIN :))
earlier i was talking about myself but i haven't finish yet
my favorite color is GREEN
it is actually represents my character alot i don't know
how but it dose kkkkk
i like ti listen to english & japaness songs only
i have never heard an arabic song i just don't like it
i watch anime only sometimes i watch American movies when my family dose
only comedy & action movies i hate horror movies and for my personal only sick minded people
watch such a thing cuz it is really overrated
there are some scenes that are really very savage
it dosen't scare me but i think it is 2 savage and i hate that
but.. if there is a horror anime i will definitely watch it kkkkkk u can say that i take sides

i am not a girly girl like i like pink and wear high heals and scream if i saw
a bug
i have never not even once wore a high heals shoes i wear sneakers only
and i don't scream even if i am scared 2 death i keep my fear 4 myself
why share such a silly thing with every one & let them have something against me oh and i don't
like pink
yeah that is really weird but that's me XD

what u have read above is what i like
i want 2 talk about my personality
what strangers think i am :some of them think that i am a puffy person which i'm not
in the middle of a big group of strangers i feel shy & i hate 2 talk with them especially if they r old people
like my parents friends that's why they don't really like me
i would like 2 say something 4 them
HEY THERE MOM & DAD FRIENDS
HATE IF U LIKE BUT THAT WOULD NEVER CHANGE THE FACT THAT I CAN'T
TALK 2 OLD PEOPLE I JUST CAN'T
IT IS HARD 4 ME 2 TALK NORMALLY TO STRANGERS I WILL MISS WORDS AND
I WOULD NEVER TALK IN THE SAME SUBJECT YOU R TALKING DISCUSSING ABOUT
I CAN'T TALK ABOUT ANYTHING BUT ANIME, MANGA & VG
CASE CLOSED

what friends think i am : they think that i am stupidly kind and i don't hate anyone
now these guys r way more away from the truth
i am not stupidly kind and i'm not easy 2 be tricked
when my friends lie 2 me and they think that i fell 4 it
bcz i pretended that i fell 4 it but they don't know that i know everything
idiots kkkkkk
and about that i don't hate any one thing
dear friends i hate 99.99% of the people i know but u just don't care so u don't know

my family think that i have a cold feelings and i don't love my friends and i don't give sacrifices
for them that's why i don't have a close friend
but here's the thing
i those days when i believed in friendship i did all my best to make my friends like sisters to
me i helped them in every way i could and i loved them with all my heart but what did i get
in return ignoring they used me 4 their own good and when it is the fun time no one remembers me
i once invited my friends to visit me
when i sit with them they talk boring talks and they say we don't have anything 2 say
and they said that after 3 months of being away from each other
when i go 2 bring a drink or food they started 2 talk about something
when i came they stoped talking when i asked them they said personal things
i was like hey i'm one of the group tell me
they said that they will tell me later and that's when all my believes about friendship died
4ever i may have a good friend one day that will be there 4 me when i need her
but i may not
for now i talk 2 everyone in my class as a good classmate only and my only friends r
the anime characters and u guys in this wed
oh and my sisters 2

when i write here i feel very comfortable and free
i actually feel like a freedom writer kkkkkkk
thank u 4 reading
i'll continue later
Sayonara

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konnchiwa...:))
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today i have nothing 2 say cuz if i started 2 talk i wouldn't end
till tomorrow << that's bad right kkkkkkk
the thing is i have been working on that new subject of mine in this web
it is anime renders
i collected them from different websites and then i decided to
make them as a subject
so i made the samples the header and everything
when i started 2 make my new subject the renders refused to be lift bcz of the
really slow internet connection so instead i made 2 folders each one contains
about 120 renders but they refused to be lift also
i kept on separating the renders 2 more than one file till it reached 20 files
each one contains +-11 render
and each file takes an hour 2 be lift and that freaked the hell out of me
every file get lift i saved it's direct code in my bookmarkes toolbar
till now i reached the 19th folder but this one refuses 2 be lift
i have been trying 2 lift it since before yesterday but this is not working
the subject is really nice and i'm dying 2 do it but this damn internet wouldn't allow
me ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i just really feel calm when i write here
it's an amazing feeling when u write what u feel and i like it

i'll share u [the amazing person who is reading mu writes ] some of mu favorite
quotes and saying that matches my character
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#1
I'D RATHER BE A FREAK THAN A FAKE

#2
WHAT EVER U DO GOOD OR BAD PEOPLE WILL ALWAYS HAVE
SOMETHING NEGATIVE 2 SAY

#3
I WOULD RATHER BE HATED 4 SOMETHING I AM
THAN LOVED 4 SOMETHING I'M NOT

#4
DON'T LISTEN OR THINK ABOUT ANYTHING OTHER PEOPLE SAY
JUST LIVE UR LIFE AND PROVE THEM WRONG

#5
SMART LISTENS 2 THE HEAD , STUPID LISTENS 2 THE HEART

I'LL WRITE MORE OF THESE LATER
SATONARA 4 NOW

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Take me down to the river bend
Take me down where the fighting ends
Wash the poison from off my skin
Show me how to be whole again

Fly me up on a silver wing
Pass the black where the syrens sing
Warm me up in a nova's glow
And drop me down to the dream below

Cause I'm only a crack
In this castle of glass
Hardly anything left
For you to see, for you to see...

Bring me home in a blinding dream
Through the secrets that I have seen
Wash the sorrow from off my skin
And show me how to be whole again

Cause I'm only a crack
In this castle of glass
Hardly anything left
For you to see, for you to see...

Cause I'm only a crack
In this castle of glass
Hardly anything else
I need to be...

Cause I'm only a crack
In this castle of glass
Hardly anything left
For you to see, for you to see......
For you to see...

Mix

ONLY 2 DAYS ARE LEFT FROM MY VACATION T^T
I FEEL HORRIBLE

Mix

I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO SAY NOW
I WANT TO WRITE STH. BUT THERE IS NO INSPIRATION ><

Mix

In this desert
In darkness
Lying with the gun across his chest
Pretending
He's heartless
As the fire flashes in the sky
He was fragile
And frozen
When the bullet took away his friend
And now he's somehow
More broken

He's pulling his weapon to his side
Loading it full of his goodbyes
Holding an enemy across the line
He's pulling his weapon to his side
Loading it full of his goodbyes
Holding an enemy across the line

Sweating
And shaking
Lying with her hands across her chest
She wakes with
Her cravings
As the fire flashes in her eye
She was fragile
And frozen
When the needle took away her friend
And now she's somehow
More broken

She's pulling her weapon to her side
Loading it full of her goodbyes
Holding an enemy across the line
She's pulling her weapon to her side
Loading it full of her goodbyes
Holding an enemy across the line

With every battle he's choosing
With every fight he's losing
His enemy's not far behind
With every promise she's broken
With every lie she's spoken
Her enemy's not far behind

It's your time
It's your time
It's your time
It's - your - TIME!

He's pulling his weapon to his side
Loading it full of his goodbyes
Holding an enemy across the line

She's pulling her weapon to her side
Loading it full of her goodbyes
Holding an enemy across the line

With every battle he's choosing
With every fight he's losing
His enemy's not far behind
With every promise she's broken
With every lie she's spoken
Her enemy's not far behind

I SO DAMN LOVE THIS SONG

I SAW THAT GREAT QUOTE THAT SAYS :- "FOOLS SET THE RULES IN THIS WORLD, TAKE
A LOOK AROUND IT'S UN DENIABLE " I BELIEVE IT'S TRUE

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The other night
I had a dream
There was a world full of kings and queens
But it was cold
Dark as the night
We were the fire on the moonlit skies

We weren't divided
We were the same
And we were free
But we all wore chains
We couldn't see it
But we created
A place between truth and overrated

If I could just see it all
Just like a fly on the wall
Would I be able to accept what I can't control?
And would I share what I saw?
Or just sit back and ignore
Like nothing never happened,
I haven't seen you before?

I'm on the run from a thief
I let into my head
I know, I hold the keys, so don't be scared
When I turn and shout:

I don't think I need you anymore
Take your words, and your lies and just beat it!
I don't think I need you anymore
Take the hurt and the pain, I don't need it!

I wanna live, I wanna be the change
We can all be kings and queens
If we can just learn to believe
If we can just learn to believe

We had a plan to build a wall
A great divide that would never fall
To separate us
From all the pain
And keep our skeletons locked away

And brick by brick
We built it so thick
That it blacked out the sky and all the sunlight
And one by one
We all became numb
We were making the bullets to a broken gun

If I could just see it all
Just like a fly on the wall
Would I be able to accept what I can't control?
And would I share what I saw?
Or just sit back and ignore
Like nothing never happened
And I haven't seen you before?

I'm on the run from a thief
I let into my head
I know, I hold the keys, so don't be scared
When I turn and shout:

I don't think I need you anymore
Take your words, and your lies and just beat it!
I don't think I need you anymore
Take the hurt and the pain, I don't need it

I wanna live, I wanna be the change
We can all be kings and queens
If we can just learn to believe
If we can just learn to believe

I don't think I need you anymore
Take your words, and your lies and just beat it!
I don't think I need you anymore
Take the hurt and the pain, I don't need it!

I wanna live, I wanna be the change
We can all be kings and queens
If we can just learn to believe
If we can just learn to believe...

THOUSAND FOOT KRUTCH ROCKS :))))

Mix

It won't be easy, you'll think it strange
When I try to explain how I feel
That I still need your love after all that I've done

You won't believe me
All you will see is a girl you once knew
Although she's dressed up to the nines
At sixes and sevens with you

I had to let it happen, I had to change
Couldn't stay all my life down at heel
Looking out of the window, staying out of the sun

So I chose freedom
Running around, trying everything new
But nothing impressed me at all
I never expected it to

Don't cry for me Argentina
The truth is I never left you
All through my wild days
My mad existence
I kept my promise
Don't keep your distance

And as for fortune, and as for fame
I never invited them in
Though it seemed to the world they were all I desired

They are illusions
They are not the solutions they promised to be
The answer was here all the time
I love you and hope you love me

Don't cry for me Argentina

Have I said too much?
There's nothing more I can think of to say to you.
But all you have to do is look at me to know
That every word is true

Mix

Feeling my way through the darkness
Guided by a beating heart
I can't tell where the journey will end
But I know where to start

They tell me I'm too young to understand
They say I'm caught up in a dream
Well life will pass me by if I don't open up my eyes
Well that's fine by me

So wake me up when it's all over
When I'm wiser and I'm older
All this time I was finding myself
And I didn't know I was lost

I tried carrying the weight of the world
But I only have two hands
Hope I get the chance to travel the world
But I don't have any plans

Wish that I could stay forever this young
Not afraid to close my eyes
Life's a game made for everyone
And love is the prize

So wake me up when it's all over
When I'm wiser and I'm older
All this time I was finding myself
And I didn't know I was lost

Didn't know I was lost
I didn't know I was lost
I didn't know I was lost

Mix

There's no such thing as maybe,
Burn it like you fading,
No more hesitating
Let the sparks fly baby;
Drive it like your racing,
You can call me crazy,
I'm just tired of waiting,
Let the sparks fly baby.

Give me one if it's real
And two if you can feel it,
Give me three signs that you're awake,
It only takes one spark
For two to fall apart
And three more to blow it away

Give me one if it's real
And two if you can feel it,
Give me three signs that you're awake,
It only takes one spark
For two to fall apart
And three more to blow it away

Let me take you into the light,
There's nowhere to hide,
There's nothing but darkness left here
Shake it up and let's take a ride
'cause heaven's not far away
And I'm not gonna leave you here.

Give me one good reason
Two more to believe in
Three shots and watch your weight
'cause I got one more match,
Two strikes left
You got to three to get out of my way